I don't know about the urge to create but I've experienced the unexplained crying.

For a while when I was younger my parents were very worried about me because this would happen. I would just out of the blue start crying. I don't remember the exact circumstances because it was several years ago but I do remember telling my parents that I wasn't sad about anything.

Now either I have grown out of this or I have learned to recognise it as something else. I think it may have been a forerunner to something that happens to me when I don't get enough sleep which I call "going flat". I've also learned that something similar happens to my Dad except he calls it "getting lost".

When this happens to me I all of the sudden feel drained, squeezed out, almost 2 dimensional, and similarly the world around me goes flat. Things people say kind of echo inside my head. I feel like I'm on the outside and everything is really important. Quite often I've just been involved in something fun with a lot of people around. It's worse if I've just been involved in something really silly. Trying to find a place to sit in a crowded cafeteria is an activity that is particularly prone to causing me to go flat.

At any rate I quite often have to go off and cry when this happens. If someone who knows me well enough to get me to talk and give me a hug is around it will all be over sooner. Even if not I usually just need some time out. The rest of the day is always a little blurry, crying does that, but I get by.

I don't know if this is related to your situation. For me it doesn't seem to be conected to creativity in any way. Whatever the cause of it is what you really have to do is learn how to live with it. You may grow out of it, or maybe you won't but in the mean time it sounds like something that you should pay attention to. Try to be able to recognise the warning signs of when this is going to happen. Try to figure out common conditions for this occuring. Try to figure out the best way to deal with it. Try to explain it to people who are close to you so that they are at least aware of what's going on with you.

Rivikah