I just got a Dear John letter. My girlfriend and I had been dating since late January and we thought all was going well. Well, actually I was starting to think maybe we weren't the right people for each other due to some differences of opinion and stuff, but I was hoping that either she or I would change. I'm getting ready to go to college and she is too, but she doesn't like the university I want to go to. That was one of several disagreements we had. At any rate, I was praying really hard this afternoon that God would reveal His will to me so I'd know what to do in this relationship. Just a few short hours after praying, I found an e-mail in my inbox and it was the answer, I believe, from God.

So it's not exactly what I wanted to hear. Yeah, I'm sad. But now I can go to the school I want without feeling so guilty. Also, I was starting to feel tied down by being involved in a serious relationship at such a critical point in my life. It's pretty reassuring to know that I'm following God's will, too, which I seem to be doing now. And the letter I got from her wasn't really like a regular Dear John letter. It was civil and polite and stuff, and basically said that God was placing the same uncertain thoughts upon her heart as He was upon mine. Great, that doubles my certainty of what He wants, now!

Sure, I can say all this late on a Thursday night... We'll see just how I feel when I have to spend the weekend all *alone.* I think I might cry.

-useless"still single, for now"ness