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> I'm doing my best now to turn where I should be turning anyway... to the only Father I ever had and ever will have. But I need prayer, because it's hard.
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> So any of those who pray, please do so. I have a month of nothing to do, and I don't want to spend it sulking. Pray for me to be able to forgive my father, which I never before felt I had to do. Pray for me to be able to heal emotionally quickly.
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I will be praying for you.

The more I reflect on your post, Ria, the more I keep thinking, not about your father, but about your mother. Thank God for her strength and integrity --I mean that literally, let's thank Him that He gave you the parent you need.

You mentioned you feel you should have dealt with all this already? No. Consider it a gain that you didn't feel you had to deal with anything any earlier than this. There's something to be said for being allowed a childhood without needing to cope with *all* of life's little realities...and it occurs to me that this was a gift from God-- and your mother--too.

The more we recognize and declare God's blessings in our lives, the less important and more easily healed the rejections seem to be. I realize that probably sounds extremely trite, but I just don't know how else to say it. It's something I've only recently learned myself.

((((Ria))))
(((Ria's mom)))

koala"life's not fair, but God is good"mom